My Little Sister (Poetry)

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This is the first time Im posting something using my phone so sorry if there's any errors.

    Last week, My school created an event which allows us to express and show our gifts/talents. That event, is Talent's day (obviously)

I participated of course. My first time performing spoken poetry in front of my schoolmates. I cant believe I actually cried while performing and to my surprise, there were other people in the crowd shedding their tears too. One of them came to me and said " Hey Eri, that was a very touching poetry. I even cried/shed few tears just now"
I feel so... Calm and happy when someone said that. Anyways, it was recorded but im not going to post it haha kbye

Here's the poem.

Tittle : To My Little Sister
Slide info : True Story, My Little sister is not with me, she is in indonesia with my step mother.
Here it goes


She was just born in the hospital 5 years ago and 5 years ago I didnt know how to hold or carry a baby,
She was what we called beautiful in a sense that was integrated with adorable when she was an infant,
She was another human being as I refer her as my little sister,
But I didnt know how to show what she is to me. So i wrote this poetry.

Ive always been the type of person to be quiet, stay silent and remain mute in the family.
I dont like sharing my opinions nor do I like listening to theirs.
I just told myself be a good boy and stay quiet.
An introvert I was, sometimes hyper by putting a fake facade in the family.
Anger was the only emotion i could express when i was a kid but id cry myself to sleep afterwards. Because i know that, that wasnt me.

Growing up, Im not used to show my emotions so when my little sister was born i didnt know how to react,
Ofcourse I liked to play with her cheecks or hold her soft hands, but that was about it. Nothing more nothing less.

Oh how i regret,
Not being able to share my fullest smile when i could, with her
Not being able to utilize my fullest time when i could, with her
Not being able to hold her close when i could, just her,
Teach her everything i know when i could, with her.
Now everything is just "i couldve" because simply im not, with her.

Dear little sister,
Im sorry i wasnt able to catch the flight to fly to you last year,
If time could slowly rewind, i wouldve just ditch school for you.
Wait, dont ditch school, it's bad.
But i would, to see you.
To tell you the truth,
Youve grown a lot, your hair has grown longer, your eyes has sparkle, your laugh is endearing. If only i was able to experience your growth in real life, rather than just look at pictures and videos of you
That wouldve been better, dont you think?
But hey, did you know?
Your big brother has grown too
You probbly wont have a single fragment of memory of me, but i just want you to know ive grown too.
And im a lot wiser,
I can debate, im not that bad at football,
Hope it's not too late, to tell you this now.
Happy birthday.
This poem is my gift to you, Athiera.

We may be half blood related but remember that blood is always thicker than water,
Imouto, if there's a day that I had to choose between accompanying you or to go out with my unrealistic going to have girlfriend, id choose you.
When the world of hatred tries to bring you down to pieces and the only thing you were able to catch with your tiny hands are blisters,
I'll be the one to show the other side of the world, the opposite of hate. And your wounds wont be heal through time, but it will heal by spending time with me.

When we meet, we'll have a lot to talk about, i'll mostly talk abt animes, and you'll prbbly talk abt fashion.
We would go out doing everything on sundays,
You'll be the centre of the attention.
Sister, if one day there's a time where I might give you pain or suffer
Remember to forget me.
So i'll be reminded how it feels like to lose a sister.
Forget me.
Because i'll try my hardest to make you remember, everything.
Sister, you are my only little sister.
Dont forget me

After all this you probably wouldnt understand thing bec you still cant understand the language im speaking,
But i hope one day when you grow up and see this video
Theres one thing I have to tell you.
As your big brother
My little sister, I .. Love you.

Thank you and Goodnight ;)